A Writer's Dilemma

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I just put away this year's study on Roman’s on the shelf with the three other Bible study books I completed in the past three years; but Romans is undone. I am done, for some reason. I don’t know why. 

In the 1980s as I pleaded with God to provide stability He answered unexpectedly, “Write the revelation”. I have to say I have tried, but I can’t say I know if I have really heard. Have the past 40 odd years been a practice run? Have they been nothing? Are they a personal self-help journey? I shrug. 

Yet today as I offload responsibility to some commitments and ponder the dynamic of change and available time, I wonder, will it come? Will that revelation come? Is it a resurgence of writing the two stories I started and then put away (but I keep within reach) or is it a burbling up of the poetic muse that forces me to again put to paper deeply guarded thoughts - or - will an angelic creature visit me to tell me to begin writing what will be told me in spurts, and sections of truth understood and not? Will what I observe among humanity suddenly coalesce into a revelation too powerful to ignore? I don’t know, but I am waiting. Still.